Okay..so I'm ready to share something with you that I couldn't share before.....God truly answers prayer.
You know that already?? Well, I do too, but let me tell you why I need to remind you of that today.
Last Thursday, I went for my yearly checkup. You all know what I'm talking about...that exam every woman looks forward to each year...yep..you're with me.
Let me remind you that I've been going to the same Dr. since I was 19. He's been there through everything including fertility treatments and the scary, life-changing moments during both pregnancies. He's been with me through a cancer scare a year and a half ago. He's a Christian and just a wonderful man and I trust him.
Things were going good with my exam and it got time for him to examine my breasts. His usually pleasant, joking demeanor changed instantly to very serious. I'd seen that change before and I knew he was very concerned. He told me that he felt a lump in my left breast and asked had I noticed it. No, I hadn't. He then went to my right breast where he found 2 more lumps....3 lumps and a very serious Dr. This wasn't good.
It was time for my yearly mammogram and he normally schedules them about 2 weeks after my visit with him. This time though, he scheduled the mammogram along with a sonar ASAP.
That happened this morning.
My family and I, along with our church family, have been praying nonstop since Thursday evening. We've cried and been angry and finally were able to agree with God that we wanted these lumps removed by His hand, but if He wanted me to take another path, He would take me through that as well.
Today when I got to the clinic, I noticed that I was early and so I took a little time to pray and read my Bible. I was just flipping through the Bible when I closed my eyes and verbally told God that I needed to hear from Him. I opened my Bible and looked down and was at Jeremiah 42:11-12. I laughed and thought to myself, 'What encouragement could I get out of a book written by someone known as the Weeping Prophet??!'
But I read it anyway...." 'Now you fear the king of Babylon, but don't be afraid of him', says the Lord, 'because I am with you. I will save you and rescue you from his power. I will be kind to you, and he will also treat you with mercy and let you stay in your land.' " (NLT) The emphasis is what I heard. I closed my Bible and silently thanked God that He would let me stay in my land....with my family.
One nurse did my mammogram while the other read over it. The one who read it, took me in another room for the sonar. She began at my right breast and I was watching the screen the whole time. She stopped, took a picture and looked some more. Finally I asked, "Do you see anything?"
She told me that I had one of the most thorough doctors in the area and she was sure that he'd felt lumps on Thursday, but for whatever reason she could find NOTHING!!!!!!!!!
No cysts, no lumps, no thickening...nothing!!!!!!! Well, I just about came off that table!!
She then went on to check my left breast and again found NOTHING!!!!!!
She reminded me that, of course, the radiologist had the final say, but she saw absolutely nothing!!! She encouraged me to keep my follow up exam with my Dr in April (definitely!!) but that she believed everything to be fine.
I couldn't wait to get out to my car and call DH who could only keep repeating Amen. DD just cried..this time tears of joy. (She had been fasting for me....I didn't know that...I am humbled and blessed...) DS was at work but the minute he got in the car he asked me if I knew anything. With tears I told him what I'd been told and shared the scripture God had given me. True to his personality, he looked relieved and went silent. I knew he too, was thanking our Father.
So, once again, He is faithful. What would I be saying if the outcome had been different?? I'm not sure. I do know that I had given this to Him, knowing that whatever path He chose, He would be right there with me, carrying me when I couldn't carry myself.
In my life, I've had 4 cancer scares. Each time, God has seen fit to remove the reason behind the scare. I'm not sure why, but I do know that I can't sit silent anymore. He is worthy to be praised and all He is asking is all of me.
And I'm sure that all He wants is all of you as well.