Hopefully you've visited recently and noticed that it's been a few days since I've posted anything.
Let me explain why....
I was reading a blog that I frequent and the sweet lady was saying good-bye. She had spent time in prayer and felt that God was calling her to focus on her calling as a wife and mom and to sign off to the blogging world for now.
I'm going to miss gleaning from her wisdom, but completely understand the decision she has come to.
One thing in her writing that stuck out to me and has caused me to step back for a few days was this....
She wrote that she'd become discouraged by the women who are trying to "look" like other bloggers....those who are merely mimicking what they read on other blogs and trying to appear spiritual.
This really made me stop, think and do some self examination with some serious questions and views on my end.
I respect this woman a lot, but I find myself thinking that there are what...a million blogs out there..and in all of that, there has got to be times when God will lay the same subject on more than one person's heart to write about.
We tend to read blogs that are similar and share our viewpoint for the most part. Isn't it logical to assume that you're going to come across duplicates??
I also have to admit that I believe God can bless me through someone's writing even if they are in the wrong frame of mind when they post something.
If they are trying to "appear" spiritual, isn't that something that is between them and God?
I'm certainly not trying to attack this lady at all....again, I've been thoroughly fed at the hand of her postings.....
Then I began thinking...do I fall into that category? Am I copying other bloggers or trying to "appear" spiritual??
There have been times in my short blogging venture that I've done a post only to click on someone else's blog and see they've posted something similar. Did I "copy" them? No..I tend to believe that God has a message that He really wants to get out and that the other blogger and I may have a few of the same readers, but for the most part, we have a separate, different readership and God is reaching an ocean of people through our writings.
Am I trying to "appear" spiritual?
No. Let me be the first to admit that my relationship with my Savior isn't always what it should be. I try really hard to seek Him out before I do a post because I want my blog and myself to be a vessel He can use to further His Kingdom. But He doesn't always "give" me something to post about. It's those days you'll find random postings if you find a new posting at all.
I can't "appear" to be anything. I am who I am....a 44 year old-wife of almost 26 years to the best husband in the world- SAHM of the two greatest teenagers God has ever created. My house is not spotless, my car needs washed, the ironing needs done, I've got 62,000 books that I've started and have yet to finish reading. We have homeschooled for almost 12 years and will graduate our youngest next year. I live a simple life and find pleasure in simple things.
I face the same financial, marital, life with kids struggles as everyone else, we're just in different stages of life. Maybe you have already been where I am or I've already been where you are.
I want my blog to help and encourage. I want you to leave my site with something to ponder, laugh about, relate to or maybe even the occasional eye roll...."WHAT was she thinking!!?"
Yes. I love my Heavenly Father with every fiber of who I am. He is my Everything. Yes, I fail Him...but He loves me anyway. He loves me just as I am, but He loves me too much to leave me that way.
So with that, let me just say....
I'm not perfect and I don't ever intend to portray myself as someone who 'has it all together'. Those of you who read my blog and personally know me (R & K) can attest to the fact that having it all together is the farthest thing from the truth...but I do pray that when you visit, you leave here blessed.